A high school teacher once said;
“Being close & open to your opposite sex is important, you become more transparent, there’s no insecurities which makes you more confident. Later that also helps you build better relationship/friendships”.
I took those words bit too seriously i guess.
Even though my name is bit spoiled with university girls, I haven’t dated many in my almost close to 30 life. Actually i never missed dating someone. Being an outrageous extrovert, I always had/have options to choose with whom i want to hangout/party/travel/workout/get cozy/watch Netflix/movie night/go hiking or shopping.

Now back to the story/confession/realisation, here it goes:
Way back when I was getting over a breakup, I used to spend most of my night filled with anger & a boyish temper. I didn’t realize it back then, I had so much to achieve in my life & such negative feelings weren’t helping. I wondered why she was able to get over faster than I was. Later I realised, it’s because I was spending so much time hating that situation rather than getting over it.

Anyone from my high school/university friends scratching their head over which breakup i am talking about; it’s my bestfriend DEMI. We are bestfriends since 7th century, but we share a hilariously mad crazy past. We dated for a very short period of time, I wasn’t ready for any serious COMMITMENT & I literally thought we were just fooling around. Fault was mine. I said YES to 4 girls for prom night & 2 out of those 4 were our seniors. I was expecting DEMI will be cool with it. To fight back & make me jealous, DEMI went on a date with one of my friends named Ivan. Being a loyal bro, Ivan asked my permission whether he is allowed to take DEMI out for a full monty brunch. DEMI didn’t even like her date idea & she dumped Ivan even before their first date ended. She tried twice to patch what fell apart in between us, meanwhile i was more focused with my part-time job & my studies because exams were nearby. I didn’t care much because i am the kinda guy who’s happy when my bank account grows, my life is more about my growth rather than allowing someone to mess with my piece of peace. Let’s say, I am a happy man because i am married to my bank account.

It became a runner/chaser situation for a week. Sad to say i was the runner. There was a period of silent treatment. Once again DEMI told me she wants her bestfriend back. Next day was saturday, that evening it was snowing really bad which was a lightbulb moment for me, I invited DEMI to try my homemade sourdough pizza. It wasn’t tasty like store-bought pizza, but we both ate it with pin drop silence. That was my first try with sourdough fermentation. Next day DEMI came to my apartment early morning, we followed another recipe from some website & we baked that pizza perfectly. We both were upset about each other’s behaviour. An amazing conversation after a good pizza helped us heal. We both got the closure & clarity we needed.

Coming back to this current day called TODAY, DEMI is the only person who sits on my lap even without asking. I usually ask her for a head or back massage anytime i wish. We go on long drives, surfing, rock climbing & paragliding pretty often. We fight for last slice of pizza or last dorito chips. All weddings/royal dinner invitations/travelling to some nearby islands during weekends, we are each other’s +1 partner. If weather is not ok, we make it better by cuddling each other. 3-4 times she suggested whether we can date again! And as usual my response remains the same. I am not ready for dating experiments, because it’s usually 6-8 months to get in & then another next 6-8 months to come out, it’s a waste of whole year. And I don’t believe in second chances. But the truth is; we already have an amazing equation, i don’t want to destroy that by allowing some romantic melodrama. We have a verbal agreement, there’s a sweet punishment if we miss each other’s phonecall or facetime. Last time i missed DEMI’s call when i was attending a university seminar, as punishment i had to send a butt naked snapchat streak to all 86 girls from engineering school/university. Our communication is flawless. It took us a long time to build the amazing equation what we share & i am not strong enough to hurt her. If i know someone who is TRUTHFUL & CONSISTENT so far in my life, that’s DEMI. Now there’s nothing except RESPECT & ADMIRATION towards each other.

Takeaway:
Whatever struggle you are facing in your life,
make sure you are not poisoning yourself with anger when you could be giving yourself positivity.
When you are filled with anger or hate,
the only person that suffers is you because most of the people you hate don’t even know it and the rest don’t care.
Fill yourself with SELF-LOVE & SUCCESS before you are in search of LOVE.

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