True me.. Tap-826..

Few ways you can express how you feel towards someone;

1. I love you.
2. I need you.
3. I want you.
4. I want to be with you.
5. I don’t want to be without you.
6. I can’t live without you.
7. I miss you.

NEED, needs can be met somewhere else & being needy means being weak as well.
LOVE, this word is highly misused by people & especially someone like me needs a year to trust after a year of healing.
WANT is my favourite & number-3 is my pick out of all these 7.
WANT is that animalistic desire inside.
Which means i know i have few suitors/options, but who cares because it’s you and just you that i WANT for myself.
In case you love someone, remind them constantly & consistently that YOU WANT THEM.

Last time someone said “I WANT YOU” to me was on my birthday.
I haven’t replied that till now.
Never rushed towards anyone.
Never allowed anyone to rush towards me either.
The simple reason is;
“If someone is investing their time & energy on me, that person deserves a whole TAP”.
I am that kind of a person who hides nothing.
My only secrets are my bank account/credit card pin or my email/social media account passwords.
And right now, i am still in that phase of healing i mentioned above.

Whenever i say “LIONESS” in my posts, it’s my appreciation to that person who understands where i am coming from & why.
Appreciated for picking/dropping me at airport.
Appreciated for taking me out to my favourite brunch.
Appreciated for buying me a pair of white vans kicks after watching squid games.
Appreciated for helping me with carwash.
Appreciated for typing my thesis.
Very few people come with a clean heart & no stupid outlandish expectations.
So LIONESS, Like your favourite alphabet is T, my favourite word is “APPRECIATION”.
Rest all are a LEO-LEO thing i guess.😜
Every relationship of your life is a major investment of time & energy.
Take your sweet time, that says all about who’s who.

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True me.. Tap-823..

Sometimes my white friends want to know to whom i am saying “RAM RAM” over phone instead of starting a conversation with a simple HELLO!!
Today is the right day to answer this.
This has something to do with my values, upbringing, religion, morals, childhood & my grandpa’s bedtime stories because my both parents were working.
I am not a strong believer in religion the way people portray now a days. But i believe in your beliefs.
I believe there’s GOD, a positive divine power guiding us from somewhere.
If you are productive, truthful, consistent with what you do from a clean heart, kind or humble towards other human, all of these acts are filled with godly goodness.
I am born Hindu, and i believe i am a practicing Hindu.
My religion teaches there are multiple forms of GOD, and there are multiple pathways to heaven, so all religions must be treated with equal amounts of respect & acceptance.

Let’s get back to my answer.
Before some thousands of years there used to be a King named “Lord Ram”, incarnation of god significant to Hinduism. Some circumstances forced him to stay away from his family & palace. He lived in forest for 14 years like a normal human leaving his royalty aside. During those 14 years, he fought some demons, saved his wife & kingdom after killing a 10 headed monster named Ravan. Those 10 heads represent lust, anger, delusion, greed, pride, envy, mind, intellect, will and the ego. Ravan is the example how certain negative traits can downsize good qualities & the world remembers him as a MONSTER today. Today is the date “LORD RAM” killed Ravan & “godess DURGA” killed mahishasur, this day symbolises victory of good over evil & we celebrate it as DUSSEHRA.
HAPPY DUSSEHRA TO EVERYONE WHETHER YOU ARE CELEBRATING OR NOT.

After killing Ravan, Lord Ram returned back to rule his kingdom. Under his kingdom, there was no place for any criminal or derogatory behaviour. He established a standard for men to be truthful, faithful, kind, loyal & brave. Till the day he ruled, every human being enjoyed equal amounts of respect & happiness.
So when a Hindu says “RAM RAM”, Ram is the goodness/god inside you/your soul. One Ram is for you & other one for me.
The meaning behind it is;
“WE ARE EXCHANGING EQUAL AMOUNTS OF RESPECT AS HUMANS WITH A HOPE TO SEE A WORLD LIKE LORD RAM’S KINGDOM WHERE EVERYONE IS HAPPY & TREATED EQUALLY”.

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True me.. Tap-818..

You have to chase the things that ignite you.
You have to do the things that bring you joy.
You have to surround yourself with the people who bring you back home to yourself, with the people who respect you and embrace you in ways that make you feel like you are worthy and accepted and celebrated and loved.
You have do the work to heal yourself,
even when it hurts especially when it hurts,
so that you do not continue to approach your life within the boundary of what is heavy within you.
You have to put yourself out there,
and you cannot worry about what other people think,
you cannot rob yourself of experience or happiness or inspiration because you are scared of how you will be perceived.
You have to be unapologetic in the way that you exist here.
You have to believe that your ideas, and your hope, and your being, deserve to take up space.
You have to believe that you have purpose.

Because our existence is finite.
And as hard as that is to understand,
as hard as that can be to connect with,
from time to time remind yourself that in the most human way we are all living on borrowed time.
We live as if we are promised the experiences and the potential we are chasing,
we live as if we have control over what happens to us.
But we don’t, and that is liberating,
because it is pressing there is urgency within the lesson.
It is meant to wake you up.
Life is meant to be lived. (Not my words).

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True me.. Tap-816..

Get honest with people about who you are,
what you want,
and how you expect to be treated.
Standards only scare off the people not meant for you.

Some people have a problem,
they can’t digest respect & good vibes.
Stay away from those,
such people don’t deserve your LOVE or ATTENTION.

My bestfriend DEMI asked me yesterday “whether i will stop hanging out with her after i get a girlfriend/partner/wife or someone significant?”. I am answering this with few lines, so that she can bookmark & read it as many times she wants. I hide nothing from no one.

Here’s my answer:
My blood’s origin goes back to an eastern state of India called ODISHA. Since childhood i was taught few things which are embedded in my mind now:

1. Study, learn, get qualified & make lots of money with that knowledge. Because society is either judgemental or materialistic which respects power of MONEY & KNOWLEDGE.
2. Live for love, respect, family, and LOVE+RESPECT towards family. That’s why we have huge families.
3. MONEY you made mustn’t be used to flex in front of others. Use it to keep your family happy.
4. Invest in gold & land, this is the big kicker. That’s the reason most Indian men crave to buy more than one property & Indian women are obsessed with 24 carat pure gold jewelleries.😂 That’s all.

So one day when i enter a stable relationship, the sole purpose is to start my own family someday soon or sooner. I know whom & what to prioritise. But remember one thing dumb bitch, i feel like i know you since my past life. You are not just my bestfriend, i consider you family. You will always have 24/7 access to my house, my lap, a piggyback ride to beach & access to me no matter it’s pouring/sunny/snowing. Don’t get emotional DEMI, we are not discussing anything about this post during facetime.

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True me.. Tap-812..

So many of the lessons I’ve learned have been about standing up for myself and setting boundaries.
Most people in our current world are used to inconsistent approach & deceptive behaviour, which are both cheap & unacceptable in accordance to HUMAN standards.
It’s really hard and sometimes even painful.
In work environments and everyday life, be sure to set boundaries for those you’re spending time with.
Make sure they’re aware with what you’re comfortable with and your limitations.
Communicate with others to make sure you are honoring yourself.
It’s hard, but it’s worth it. Always.

You don’t owe anybody the present other than yourself.
Take time for you.
Respect yourself and your privacy.
Set boundaries.
Set one boundary today in your professional or personal life. (Not my words).
Life is fun, let it be.

(This 5 minutes video got nothing to do with the post above, It’s about world’s top economies in 2050. Watch it for little knowledge & fun. FYI my entire stock market investment portfolio is linked to number 2, 3 & 7 countries.)

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True me.. Tap-795..

Everybody has a home team:
It’s the people you call when you get a flat tire or when something terrible happens.
It’s the people who, near or far, know everything that’s wrong with you and love you anyways.
These are the ones who tell you their secrets,
who get themselves a glass of water without asking when they’re at your house.
These are the ones who truly believe whatever you own partly belongs to them.
These are the people who cry when you cry.
These are your people, your middle-of-the-night pal, no-matter what other people think.
FRIENDS COME AND GO,
LIKE THE WAVES OF THE OCEAN,
BUT THE TRUE ONES STAY,
LIKE AN OCTOPUS ON YOUR FACE.

These few lines are dedicated to my mates who stood by my side & proved there’s something called “TIME-TESTED EQUATIONS”.
Frank, Adam, Daria, Lucy, Karo, Chrissi, Zan, Rosy, Emy & DEMI, thanks for wishing your TAP & joining my tiny celebration.
I don’t have anything but gratitude & respect to offer you. I started a tiny health supplement business on 17-Sep-17 with a hope to promote healthy living & better diet options/eating choices. Raised it like my first child & today my baby turned 4 years old.
I wanted to celebrate this day little wilder, little more banter, but whatever comes with a smile is accepted.
You all own a huge chunk of my head & heart, ALWAYS.
Everyday is a small step towards a becoming a better human & a compassionate capitalist. I am forever grateful. Love outta respect.

I am a good boy since i was 3 years old🤞. Anyone from my family or friends who saw bit too much sass in my snapchat stories, blame my bestie DEMI’s 🍑 & cheap Ryanair flight tickets. SORRY DEMI.🤪

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True me.. Tap-790..

Life changes.
You lose love.
You lose friends.
You lose pieces of yourself that you never imagined would be gone.
And then, without you even realizing it, these pieces come back.
Love blooms inside you with lots of respect.
Better friends come along.
And a stronger, wiser you is staring back in the mirror.
No matter how bad it gets, better days are always waiting, hoping you’ll make it there to accept the smiles and joy that they’re offering.

Someone once told me to always live for the little things in life.
Live for 5am sunrises and 5pm sunsets where you’ll see colours in the sky that don’t usually belong.
Live for road trips and bike rides with music in your ears and the wind in your hair.
Live for days when you’re surrounded by your favourite people who make you realise that the world is not a cold, harsh place.
Live for the little things because they will make you realise that this is what life is about, this is what it means to be alive.
LIFE IS ALL ABOUT A CONSISTENT FLOW OF POSITIVE VIBE WHICH STARTS WITH YOU.
(Not my words.)

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True me.. Tap-777..

Staying in a relationship just because you love somebody is not worth it.
Love is not all you need.
Respect is what you need.
Reassurance is what you need.
Communication is what you need.
Heart to heart conversation is what you need.
Happiness is what you need.
Knowing everyday you’re their favorite person is what you need.
Learn to love yourself first, let other one match it.

When someone not so familiar asks me “Ever been in LOVE!?!”.
My answer is: Yeah 3 times.

1. When i woke up at 5.45am today morning just wearing a trunk & i saw my 5 pack abs.
2. When i was getting ready for university, because now i am a PhD research scholar.
3. When i received my bank balance text after buying groceries at Lidl.
I fall in love with myself 3 times everyday.

Two exceptions i must mention;
1. When a kid accidentally says my name TAP after i touch his/her nose while saying TAP TAP TAP.
2. When a cute eastern european girl or a slavic angel with a fine 🍑 approaches me near a beach, can’t beat that one.
Special mention; also when my bestie bitch makes coffee for me when i am working from home at her house. This one is dedicated for you Demi.
Done.

Tap..😜